Good looking little boys

I just love them to pieces, even when they wake up at two am screaming for an hour just because they think it's morning. Little stinks.

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Hurt and Anger

I'm probably gong to regret posting this later but for right now I'm full of hurt and I need to get some things on my chest. I am just sitting here thinking to myself how happy I am that my family and I can participate in al-anon meetings. Right now I feel totally defeated and broken down. I didn't think things could get any worse and they have. I don't understand it and I'm extremely angry right now. I hate what addiction turns people into. I just need to keep focusing on my boys and try to get through this day by day (today minute by minute). This week I am actually looking forward to my 90 minute cry fest on tuesday nights. I just need to keep telling myself this great al-anon saying

Let go and let God

The serenity prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

My goals are to forgive the people that hurt me and let them go, as hard as that will be I need to find the strength to do it.

We have been having lots of fun lately. last weekend we went to the family fun center and the kids had so much fun! After all that we got a blast of snow. Joe has yet to go to school this week and tomorrow is thursday! We actually just found out that school is in fact canceled tomorrow, yay! I'm a fan of one day school weeks, more help with the kids and of course more naps for me. It's nice living close to my parents when we are snowed in because I would go crazy staying at our place all week. My mom and I got brave and went to get our nails done. I decided on sparkley pink. Yes I know 12 year olds pick that but I thought it was cute at the time!

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Thanksgiving, Brady's Birthday, and Christmas

I am finally posting pictures of Thanksgiving, Brady's Birthay, and Christmas. I don't have much time to post this so here is just pictures, sorry!

Thanksgiving pictures:

Brady's third birthday!

Christmas!

looking forward to 2012!

2011 was overall a great year for us. Here are some highlights of 2011:

Joe went oh a short deployment and returned after five weeks.

Connor started out as a 6 month old baby to a big 18 month old! lots of "firsts" for him this year!

We moved from Oak Harbor to Auburn Wa. I was really happy for us to get out of the Navy but I was sad to see our good friends Josh, Samantha, and baby Addy go. We miss them!

Almost all of Joe's entire family came to visit us last Summer. It was so fun for the kids to play with their cousins.

Connor turned one and had a cute "little red wagon" party.

We gave away our dog Max. One of the hardest decisions we have had to make. I still catch myself crying over him. We really loved that pup.

We drove to Idaho twice, for a reunion and a funeral for my grandma.

Joe and I celebrated our fifth anniversary.

Went on some great hikes with family and friends.

I did a "gladiator fun run" with a friend. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done, but I felt so good that I actually finished it!

I went from a brunette to a Blondie.

I lost 50 pounds.

I took a quick trip to Utah to visit my friend Brooke. I had so much fun! I wish we lived closer!

I turned 25.

We got a new puggle puppy, Brady named him Thor.

Brady turned three!

There were quite a few down points of last year but I wont talk about them. This year my goals are to stay positive and live healthy. I think I am done losing weight so I just need to keep doing what I'm doing enjoy life. I have a feeling 2012 will be a big year for us! :)