Mal on the left and I'm on the right
Thursday, September 8, 2011
Personal Post...need to get things off my chest.
The past 5 years have been really hard on my family, close family and friends know why. I don't feel like posting the reasons why things have been hard on my blog mostly because it would honestly take me forever. I will just say that my pain and fear comes from my twin sister. She has chosen to live on the streets and its tearing me up. my whole family is totally broken. We didn't know where she was or what she was doing. Today has been a really hard day for me so Joe forced me out of the house to go to the mall to get my mind off of her. We walked into target and there she was, returning stolen items to receive store credit. My heart broke when I saw her. Part of me was relieved that she wasn't dead but the other part wanted to explode. She was covered in dirt and didn't look well at all. Do you have any idea how it feels like to see your homeless twin sister? It took every ounce of strength to not break down and cry in front of her. I wanted her to think I was fine even though I'm not. I'm not fine at all. I can't eat, sleep, or even think right now. The only reason I get out of bed every day is because of my two boys and husband. Joe is trying his hardest to comfort me but it's hard because he just doesn't get what I'm going through. I guess there is nothing I can really do but pray that she will be safe and protected, and that she will some day want the help she needs. I hope I can try and get through this with out having a mental breakdown (which is soon coming). I am thankful for my wonderful family and friends to help me through this really sucky time. I just really miss my sister.
Posted by Joe and Mandy Johnson at 9:13 PM